Thursday, May 30, 2013
On the edge of the mountain...
Day 30: React to this term: Letting go.
Letting go. Something that applies to so many things, places, people, moments in all of our lives. I can look back and think of moments when I was standing on the edge of this mountain of bad. Of toxic. And thinking to myself... How am I ever going to get through this? How am I ever going to be okay on the other side? I gave all I had and that got me here...
And sometimes I think it's in the moments of "I can't do this... I can't let go." that we realize... we can.
Years ago, when I was standing on that mountain of heartache. And thinking that I'll never make it through the other side of this relationship... I found myself sobbing on the bathroom floor. Because I had gave it all I had. I had spent sleepless nights, gave up so much of myself, became a girl I never thought I'd be... and after what seemed like a lifetime... the truths all came crashing down around me. And that mountain crumbled. And I broke. And I cried... oh, I really cried. But it was in that moment of despair, that I felt the calmness wash over me. And I knew... it was time to let go.
Letting go is a funny thing. When we are staring at it in the face with the knowledge that we will meet one day soon - we are so terrified of it. Like it quite possibly, could kill us. But then when we make it to the other side, once we have finally let go of the bad, the evil, the ugly... and that weight is lifted and we can breathe...
We realize... letting go isn't the enemy. It's simply just our path to something better. And better never did come easy.
Happy Thursday, lovers - can you believe May is almost over?! Ohhh birthday month, I will miss you.