I've struggled my whole adult life with the desire to be the
skinny girl - I thought if I were
skinny - I'd be happy. Those two things go hand in hand... right?
Wrong.
Being
skinny doesn't mean you have it all. It just means you wear a smaller size. And I've learned that. While it was a hard journey... I feel like in the last year I have come full circle with it. I have realized that it doesn't matter whether I'm a size 2 or size 8 or size 16 - you can still be happy, you can still be loved, you can still be successful. You don't gain friends, knowledge, boyfriends, or successes simply by the size of jeans your sporting.
The past few months I have began running, for me. I am one week from finishing the
Couch 2 5k program - which is such an amazing feeling. While I ran track in high school - and I have ran here and there throughout the years - I was never the let's go run 3 miles without stopping - kind of girl. But, I have become one. Because
I wanted to. Not because a guy wanted me to. Or so I could be
skinny for this event or that one. And it's such a nice feeling.
And almost two weeks ago I began the
p90x workout program - after hearing so many people rave about it, seeing so many people have such success with it, and knowing how intense it was - I was skeptical - but intrigued. So I asked Dad {who has completed the program 9 times through} if I could borrow his and two weeks later, I'm still going strong. It's hard, challenging, but so, so gratifying when I can say that I've done it.
Unlike most, I didn't set out with a weight loss goal in mind. And personally, that's helped me. I'm not setting myself up to fail... if I eat three pieces of pizza or succumb to the watermelon Oreo's staring at me at the checkout in Target {which are surprisingly delicious}, I'm not going to punish myself - I'm just going to go a little harder tomorrow. I'm doing this because I want to. Because I can. Because it feels good... if I lose weight in the process... great. But it's not my focus. I just want to be fit and happy. And comfortable in my skin... whether it's a size 2 or size 8.
I'm going to rock it.
And I need to give a shout out to
Nikki, who has helped keep me motivated and answered all the questions I have had in regards to anything fitness related. If you aren't following her blog and/or
facebook... you're missing out. P.S. She's hosting a giveaway on her blog right now with some
Nora & Jac loot!
P.S.S. Watch out for new headbands and bracelets to hit the shop soon! And be sure to "like"
Nora & Jac on Facebook to see things before they go live!
Happy Monday, kittens!